It’s hard to believe that just 2 days ago Josh and I were
married! Now I am on a plane, ok plane 2
of 3 for El Salvador! I am so excited to
be going on my first mission trip. I can
already feel God working in my own heart; I can only imagine how the next
several days will play out! I never in a
million years would have imagined 1 that I would actually go on a mission trip,
and 2 that I would marry my best friend! The man whom I have known since grade
school! It brings tears to my eyes every
time I think of how much I love him, how blessed I am that God crossed our
paths and that he just doesn’t love me, but he loves my boys!
I use to laugh when people said they were married to their
best friend. Today I know exactly what
they mean when they say that! I know
Josh tells me he is the lucky one… But I am the lucky one! He is my rock, my best friend, my biggest
cheerleader, my companion and the list goes on.
When I am doubtful in my faith he is quick to remind me that God has a
plan, to trust in that plan and look at the good in every situation, person,
thing and so much more.
Often in life we get off the beaten path. We allow others to dictate our lives; we
allow the devil to grab a hold of our souls.
We make mistakes, and with many of those come consequences. But how awesome is it that we have a Father
who loves us more! For so long I fought
that I was worth loving! That my sins were
too great to ever have the life God intended for me to have. I am far from perfect, we all are, but I am
better today than I was yesterday!
I look back to that day in the summer of 2006 when I sat
with my friends Dorynda and Lisa in Doyndas office at Evangel. For the first time in my life someone looked
me in the eyes and told me that Jesus loved me! His intent for my life was not
one of heart ache, pain and again the list goes on. NO, His plan was for good! We cried, and then another first, as they
prayed over me! Since that day God has
placed so many people in my path! There
have been times when I have slipped, and stumbled along the way. Every time I have felt Him pick me back up,
whipping the dirt from knees, kissing my forehead and telling me to get
up. That we all fall down in life, it is
how we chose to get up that defines who we are!
I am the first to say I make mistakes, I struggle with the
devil for the aisle more times than not.
But today I look in the mirror, and I can see hope that once was lost,
dreams that were forgotten, and a passion that was once gone!
God has laid a lot on my heart. A lot of things in regards to missions, to
helping those less fortunate and being bold in who I am. Does that mean I am perfect???? NO! What it
means is that I can say I am not perfect, that I sin every day that I struggle
everyday just like the next person. What’s
amazing about all of it though, I have a Father who sacrificed His only son so
I could live! So I could make mistakes and learn from them, so I could open my
heart to all the plans that He has for not only me but my family!
Just sitting here on this plane, my heart is so heavy. I am praying God helps me to be strong and
that not only does He do a work in the lives of the people of El Salvador but
He does a work in my life, and the loves of our entire team!
Stay tuned as I will post at least once a day to my blog in
regards to how things are going and what we are doing! For all of those who have helped to make this
trip a reality for me; thank you from the bottom of my heart!!! I could not have done this if not for all of
you, whether it was prayers, donations or words of support. Thank you, all of you!!!
Until next time! Have a fabulous day!!!!
